Day Four

Today sucked.

There is no other way to describe it. Sure, it was awesome this morning; I was full of energy. But then, after my lunch drink--like right after my lunch juice--I was hungry again. Water is great at holding off the cramps for a little while, but Christ. This isn't me wanting food out of desire. I don't. Honest. I even sat across mom tonight while she ate a Publix sub; it looked awesome, but I didn't want to eat it. No, my stomach just keep cramping all the damn time, no matter how much water or juice I drink. And I'm doing anywhere from 3 to 4 a day; mostly that's vegetables.

So, here I was, wondering, am I the only one? Surely, someone else has had this problem before. Because, I've been hungry a couple times over the last three days, but nothing like today. So, I did my usual google search to figure out if I was, if something was wrong.

Turns out, it's normal. Apparently, it can be a mixture of reasons. Some people think it's because your stomach is use to digesting all this stuff, and now it's not. In a way, it's wanting more; it wants to digest what I call 'hard foods': as in, not liquids like the fresh juice or water I'm consuming on a daily basis. It's like my body is in panic mode. Basically, me not eating all the calories I normally do is doing a number on my system. [Source]

Well, it's good to know I'm not screwing my body over, that it's normal. Does it make it any easier? Hell no. This sucks. But, then I look at Gary, and what he's going through, and I think of how much healthier we'll be together as a whole unit. And I think about the example this will set for our kids; not just that we can be healthy, but that we can stick to something we set our mind to an finish it. That's equally important, I think.

Anyway, enough about the bad, let me tell you about all the cons for this thing.

Energy, tons of energy. I was so peppy this morning. And let me tell you, I'm not a morning person. I hate getting up, I hate eating breakfast more (until I wake up). But not today. Today I was bright, happy, in a good mood. I got to talking to my buddy Ryu who told me that vegetables and fruits have a lot of minerals in them that--essentially--boost your mood. They're like a natural anti-depressant. Which, is awesome. Which also kicks all kinds of butt, in my opinion.

Now, one thing I think people wonder is the weight. I don't know if you can tell by my picture, but I'm not a heavy gal. I'm not skinny skinny either, but not heavy. I do have some weight around my thighs, butt, and stomach that could stand to go. But, overall I'm good. With that being said, I'm not going to step on the scale. I usually weigh anywhere from between 151 (pounds) and 161, depending on a lot of factors. Knowing my weight range, I'm not going to weight myself for a while. Maybe after a month.

Why?

I don't want to start focusing on that and disappoint myself. I'd rather trick myself a little by eyeballing my tummy, hips, and thighs. No measuring! ^^ If I can get back to looking like I did when I was in my early 20s? That'd rock.

So, in short? I'm just happy I'm not dying xD