Day Seventeen

Yesterday was a hard day for me. So was part of today. I really wanted to leave the house and get out, but I also wanted to treat myself with an Orange Julius. Gary couldn't do that and we don't have a lot of money right now. That blew chunks. I got really grumpy; especially when I found out he hadn't brought any water home. The water from our tap just isn't good for us as is and he hasn't found the brita filter yet. So that's very frustrating for me. Not to mention the fact that I have a Lit final tomorrow and I just wanted something nice.

This diet is hard. I was hoping, quietly, that after I hit two weeks it'd get easier. I even said I thought I'd be able to go to Christmas Eve dinner with no temptation or problems. It's not the temptation I'm worried about now. It's not that I will eat it. It's just feeling like I can't that sucks. I'm not depressed, I'm not down on myself I guess. I'm just frustrated and can't wait for the days to be over. Talking helps. I talked to Riven about it and few other people. They keep telling me to push on; they keep telling me I can do it.

To make matters worse, Gary thinks he might quit just because of how much pain he's in. I don't really understand why other than a protein deficiency. We're trying to resolve that with protein powder. I'd personally like to get some spiralina (I'm not sure I spelled that right...). I'm tired. I figured I'd be tired earlier in the diet, but maybe it's hitting me later on.

I've got 13 days till I hit the scale. Part of me wonders if I hit a plateau because I don't see much more visible weight loss. Even though it's not a primary concern, it would be nice to see more. I hear you only loose about a pound a dayish after the initial week and this is pretty normal.

Watched a video called Forks Over Knives. It promotes a vegan diet, showing research that diary products and meat can cause or promote cancer. Freakin' scary. Now, I love meat. But, the more I think about it, the more I think I could do vegan. It would have to happen over time though. I know people say it's unhealthy because you need protein; however, you can get protein from other plants, beans, and nuts. I think we've just been taught that we need animal meat.

Again, I don't know that I could do it right away, but I think I might get into it slowly after this juice fast.

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